A Year Ago

(On August 1st, 2019, my prayer from the night before was answered) A year ago I didn’t know the journey I was about to embark on. A year ago I woke up with a completely new mindset. To let go of all the stuff from the past that hurt me. That stuff I always carried…

Ch. 12: The Engagement

With everyone ready to surprise her even more than she already was, I beckoned all of them to come out and celebrate our engagement. Surprise! Everyone yelled. She was so ecstatic. “I was about to call you”, she told her parents. She was so enamored with the engagement ring that her parents gave me to…

For Me and For Her

For as long as I remember, I’ve searched for her. I smiled at her. I talked with her. I laughed with her. I helped her. I worked with her. I became friends with her. I respected her. I adored her. All in hopes of finding out that the moment with her existed. The moment of…

Ch.10: The Blessing

Her father calling me was surprising, but I wasn’t nervous as we had gotten along well at this point. He began by saying, “I know how you two feel about each other, and I have to admit, I’ve never seen her as happy as she’s been since she first told my wife and I about…

Kissing The Silence

Here I lay just kissing the silence. Even though she's right next to me. If that doesn't paint the picture Of what we have come to be. What once was my life's armor, Is now the reason I can't breathe. Suffocating from this solitude. I hate that I now want her to leave. And so…

No More Love

If I told you to echo the words I speak, would it make them stronger or make them weak? There’s no more love between us, All we ever do now is fight. There’s no more love between us, The clock has struck midnight. Telling me your sorry just won’t do this time. Telling you I’m…

Ch.9: Moving In Together

After we got back from our “christening trip” at the resort, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. It seemed like every night we were getting more and more passionate. It was amazing to say the least. Still though, we were still focused and determined to find our dream home to move into as…

Heart-Shaped Box

A mysterious heart-shaped box lies on her desk with pieces of paper inside. Picked up the first piece and it read, “for my future bride”. A smiled came across her face as she knew exactly who had written it. Grabbed another piece and that one read, “thinking of you every waking moment”. With many more…

How Can I?

I ask. See this misery end without a guarantee that I’ll ever see you again? Live in this isolation, knowing when it’s over, I still won’t have my friend? Put my heart on hold with every moment and every feeling? Move on as if I’m okay despite obviously still reeling? How can I? I ask.…

34 Weeks

From beginning to end, it lasted 34 weeks. Only, unfortunately. It was enough time though, enough to fall for you. Truly, undoubtedly. From beginning to end, it lasted 34 weeks. Short, inconceivably. It was enough time though, enough to build up. Confidence, unquestionably. From beginning to end, it lasted 34 weeks. Eight months, 238 days.…

I’m Sorry I Love You

He tries to find the words before he must say goodbye to her. “I’m going to miss you so much.” He says, before realizing it’s impossible for him to let her go. “This is going to be one of the hardest things I’ll ever have to do and so I won’t.” He says. “What do…

This Can’t Be It

You told me your goal and how much it meant, so I prayed for you. The Lord has now answered, and you got it, it’s coming true. While I’m happy and excited for your new journey to begin. My heart isn’t ready to accept our bond coming to an end. This can’t be it. My…

The Perfect Lie

When your words didn’t match your eyes That’s when I knew it was time for me to say my goodbye. And as much as it hurt me, I knew I’d never break down and cry. For even before knowing what I know now, I knew you were telling the perfect lie. What was the line…