A Year Ago

(On August 1st, 2019, my prayer from the night before was answered)

A year ago I didn’t know the journey I was about to embark on.

A year ago I woke up with a completely new mindset.

To let go of all the stuff from the past that hurt me.

That stuff I always carried around that weighed me down.

To lose that tunnel vision that imprisoned me for far too long.

Opening a new world of possibilities for my sake.

A year ago I thought it would be difficult to accomplish.

A year ago I was scared of being rejected.

Thinking I wasn’t cut out to open up and express myself.

To find the confidence to do what scared me the most at the point.

To approach the one that made me think about life’s most precious gifts.

Closing off the doubt that crowded my mind for far too long.

A year ago I told myself that the risk was worth the reward.

A year ago I knew that if I didn’t follow through, I’d regret it.

So I gathered all the fortitude within me and made my way.

Introducing myself and letting what I had thought be known.

“I wanted to say that I think you’re absolutely gorgeous.”

Turning back after that was no longer going to be an option.

A year ago life changed spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally.

A year ago everything that kept me from becoming who I am disappeared.

The words just started pouring out with so much more meaning than before.

My heart began to feel what hadn’t been felt in quite some time, if truly ever.

Those eyes captivated me and became the new confinement I found myself in.

Never again being the man I was before that moment, one that will last with me forever.

A year ago I was just a stranger with the vision of a future that wasn’t clear by any means.

A year ago that all changed when I made the decision to lay it all down and become free.

And now, a year later, I think about how amazing of a year it’s been, despite how things stand.

Yeah, a year ago today life as I had always known it all changed.